ROAD TO WORDS AND MOMENTS BY AMMARAH ARIF
I scattered all the things in my room.
I was finding my leaf everywhere.
Now, I sat down on the floor tiredly. I again picked up my diary and checked that leaf in my diary, but it was nowhere.
I picked up my pen and started writing.
'I am not weak, but people have made me a weak soul.
I tried to save myself from that professor, but he was taking benefit of my compulsion.' My fingers were shivering while writing.
'I don't know who he was? He asked me to become his friend. I will never give him an answer because I have hardly got permission to go there to study, and If Mommy gets to know about him...' I couldn't write further.
I came into my yard and saw jacky playing with food in his home. Jacky always loves to spend time in that self_made home.
I picked him up in my hands and kissed his hand.
'Jacky! Why are we both friends...?' I asked him... Although he tries to speak and always understands what I am saying.
'MINI!' Jacky jumped on my shoulders and placed his lips on my head.
'Jacky... Why does Mommy don't talk with me? Even my sisters... they do ignore me. Sisters are always soul friends, but I am unfavorable to all.' He saw in my eyes as my words catch to him too.
'She was not the only one who lost her husband. I also lost my father. I still remember that he always supports me.
I lost the way my family loves me...
Zabbie couldn't even talk to me in the presence of Mommy.' I was feeling helpless.
'Ooooo Ooooo!' I smiled at his honeyed speech.
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I came into the cafeteria to find that leaf.
'HEY! MARSH MELLO! What are you finding?' I listened to a boy's voice on my back, but I didn't respond.
'Feels like MARSH MELLO is angry!' Now the whole group was laughing.
I made my way outside when someone came in front of me again.
He was the one who saved me yesterday.
He passed me a hand wave.
I moved two steps back, but he was coming toward me.
I saw it at my back... The boys were laughing, and in front, He was standing.
'What happened DURR_E_MIHARA? And you boys! Why are you stopped?
Come on! Disturb her more... I am with you.' I saw him. Was he making fun of me?
Now everyone was laughing at me...
Yesterday, the one who saved me. Today, he supported those who were trying to abuse me.
A boy came in front of me, snatched my bag, and threw all my things on the floor.
A girl picked up my diary and was going to tear it.
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Today I saw her again at the university. The heart becomes restless to follow.
But this time, I didn't follow her. I was staring at her, standing far away from the corridor.
I smiled when I saw her finding something.
But my smile changed into a ruined expression when I saw some boys creating panic around her.
I went there and stood in front of her.
'What happened DURR_E_MIHARA? And you boys! Why are you stopped?
Come on! Disturb her more... I am with you.' She saw me with her broken eyes. I just wanted to see can she took a stand for herself.
(Whatever was happening in the cafeteria) I was observing her developing expressions.
A boy came in front of her, snatched her bag, and threw all her things on the floor.
My veins have swollen as I was observing.
A girl picked up her diary and was going to tear it. (The diary in which her soul was blowing)
In the next minute, the girl's cheek had swelled.
There was uncertainty on everyone's face.
DURR_E_MIHARA snatched her diary from that girl's hand, and her voice echoed in a huge cafeteria;
'DON'T EVEN TRY TO CONSIDER ME A FOOLISH OR A WEAK GIRL!
AND IF I AM WEAK SO I KNOW HOW TO PROTECT MY RESPECT AND PLEASE MY GOD! AT LEAST I AM NOT LIKE YOU GUYS...'
There was an adorable and triumphing smile on my lips.
She picked up her things confidently and turned to exit the cafeteria. But she didn't forget to give a reminder.
'STAY AWAY FROM ME!' And she went outside.
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I was sitting in a corner, and my eyes were marking a point.
'Was that I who spoke all that in front of everyone...?
Didn't my tongue stagger...?' I was questioning myself when I felt someone sitting with me.
I saw him again sitting with me.
'How are you feeling now...?' He finally asked.
'You should not have to come there...
All that happened was not good as you are considering!' I observed a critical state in his eyes.
'Why do you care what people think about you? You are only the hunt of inability.
NO ONE CAN RECOGNIZE A SHINING STAR!''
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They were both in a state of uncertainty.
One was uncertain that how can I speak much in front of everyone? Am I DURR_E_MIHARA?
Another one was unbelievable that the one who spoke in front of everyone was DURR_E_MIHARA...
Who is this person?
Why is he interrupting my life?
How does he know my name?
I was questioning myself when he again called my name; 'DURR_E_MIHAARA!' I saw him. He took something out from his bag and moved his hand towards me.
'PINK LEAF!' I took my pink leaf back when I noticed that there were other leaves under that leaf.
'Yesterday, it fell from your book...' He informed me.
I gave him back those colored leaves.
'I can't take these leaves from you... PLEASE!' I satisfied him.
'Whenever you need these ones, you can take it from...
I have no one to give me these things, so when I saw these colorful leaves. I bought it for you!' He was talking to me like an informal friend.
'By the way, I am inspired by the title written on this leaf. "DIRTY DOLL" He was moving his hands.
I felt a broken heart inside me.
He was making fun of my character.
I bent down my face. My eyes and heart were loaded with meaningless breaks.
'You didn't accept my personality as your friend.'
Who was this person in my life that he was complaining to me with all her might?
'There is no station of any soul in my life!' I directly answered him because I don't have any more dejection in my life.
(Although she talked very little, but she spoke very deeply)
'FRIENDSHIP IS NOT A NEED TO DEPEND ON EVERYTHING!
BUT A WISH A DESIRE TO COMPLETE YOU EVERYTHING! Maybe he was making me agree.
'I want you to speak my girl!' His voice was me to hate myself more.
'DIRTY DOLL!' I am that girl! I answered him while crying.
'I am the girl you are making fun of!' I threw all the leaves on the floor in hatred.
'You can't understand someone...
You clearly feel like I am making fun of you, but I only want you to speak something.' He picked up the leaf and sat near to me.
'The same DIRTY DOLL will feel a complete soul after some time.' There was an absolute belief in her tone.
'THERE IS ONLY A ONE RUBY IN MILLIONS OF CRYSTALS THAT COULD BE SEEN FROM A DISTANT AWAY AND REMEMBERED ALWAYS' A stranger whom I have never seen, is helping me and eliminating my helplessness.
'When will people recognize me?' I don't why, but I questioned him.
'This is your life life.
The day when you recognize yourself is the day you have to believe in yourself completely.' Like he knows every answer.
'But even everyone has the right to answer!' The question which always disturbs me.
'RIGHT!' He smiled.
'GOD has given us this right, but the people here have stolen this right, that is, so we use the word "SELFISH!"
------------------------------------I never felt alone in this house.
Because somewhere I felt that HUMAN BEING IS THE TRUST OF GOD!
My mother left me here and my father went to GOD;
I am living my life alone.
My studies and my art corner are the only precious parts of my life.
But DURR_E_MIHARA; I want to do something for her.
I don't want to see her like this.
I don't know who are the people who have destroyed her?
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I reached home and listened to the conversation voice coming from the dining room.
My all family members were sitting there.
Everyone was happy because everyone was a complete soul.
I went into my room and closed the door.
I picked up my diary from the table and started writing.
'IS THE PERSON'S LIFE COMPLETE?
Then why DURR_E_MIHARA is not standing in the queue of those people.
My mother doesn't include me in the family's happiness.
My father left me alone with those greedy people.
At least, he should have cleared my position.
Why is this important for me to clarify everywhere?
Is that stranger person correct that we should be selfish too? (THE CONNECTION TO THE GOD AND THE PEACE IN YOUR LIFE; YOU SHOULD BE FAMILIAR WITH THE WORD "SELFISH")
'THIRSTY FOR LOVE; CRYING TO ELIMINATE HELPLESSNESS FROM MY LIFE'
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I should be too celebrating my life like all of them...
I should have the right to love my relations too...
Should the one be selfish for family's relation or family's love?
'MANI!' When I heard Jessy's voice.
I opened the backyard door and saw Jessy sitting in the backyard window.
It flew and sat on my shoulders.
'MANI!
MANI!' It clapped with its wings.
'Do you know Jessy, I got my pink flower back, and he offered me more leaves.
I felt like he is the only one who understands my situation, but I am not going to commit any other mistake this time.' my voice muffled.
I saw its unlocked grown-up naive eyes.
'OOO..OOO..' When I saw a card stuck in its wings.
I took out that card and saw it inside it.
Maybe the right path, My GOD selected for me, and send the Jessy in my life to help me to go that right path.
I picked Jessy in my hand and kissed its eyes.
'MANI! MANI! Its voice echoes in my room.
'Yes, MANI'S Life!' I was also chirping like my best friend.
'OOO...OOO! It was the most engaging statement by Jessy always for me.
STILL THEN! MOMENTS LEFT FOR YOU!
The words made my day.
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The desire awoke in my heart to visit the Art line of the university.
I entered in Art line when every student was busy creating his world. I saw that boy again. I came towards him and saw him holding a pencil in his fingers and thinking something.
But her eyes were on the drawing board.
After moments his fingers began to move on the drawing board.
'What are you watching DURR_E_MIHARA?' I was really shocked that; how he knows I am standing behind her.
Maya Chaudhary
24-May-2022 10:27 AM
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Anam ansari
24-May-2022 10:18 AM
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Aliza
24-May-2022 12:04 AM
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